fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Sunday, March 14,7:13 PM

hi, havent been blogging for long. work. LOL.

hmm, ever felt that conflict sometimes? your dad gives you a piece of instruction you know you should follow. but you cant bring yourself to. z.

gosh, k. i should. but its so difficult. sadfaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. some instructions are real tough to keep, really painful. okay nvm i fail. i always knew anyway, the answer would be no. its not i didnt know. i just kept hoping, and hoping, and hoping. lol. fail.

he who has My commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves Me. and he who loves Me will be loved by My Father and I will love him and manifest Myself to him.

strength. help. how do i.. do that. k forget it, its not like anyone else can help. only by prayer i guess. if only i can pray for me to be excused.. LOL but it doesnt work that way. gosh. ):

k nvm. all things work for good to those who love God, to those who are the called, according to His purpose. i have to trust Him for providence. okay sorryyyy, just rattling off whatever's on my mind.

in any case, just went for nus open house. seriously. o_o k idk. medicine? bah. Daddy, help. hiiiii, what do you want me to do.

i think we lack courage.

this week, the Word is 'Beloved'. during Holy Communion, the word 'Beloved' just spoke to me. that i am God's beloved child. that He loves me. it just gave me so much reassurance. that you dont have to feel worthless in the presence of others. that you're someone important because there's this title of "Child of God" which God in His grace conferred onto us. see.

sometimes i feel so small, sometimes i feel stifled. i feel like i cant speak for people will laugh at me. at my ignorance. i guess they would, but. hey we all have to start off somewhere. i really, wish i can escape from this world.

ugh, so much pressure. so many worries. so much fear. but see, when these are present, we focus on them and not on God. as God's 'beloved', we can be sure of His faithfulness for His compassions never fail, they are new every morning. Great is His faithfulness.

this week help me remember that we are God's beloved. that He wants the best for us. and that He's always in control. i find it very difficult to keep remembering that He's there. i love this verse.
Therefore do not be afraid, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will help you and strengthen you. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

really, just. pray that i'll be more conscious of this.

hiiiii help.