fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Saturday, January 30,12:17 AM

one of the best days ever.

"in your time, in your time, you make all things beautiful in your time, Lord my life to you i bring, may each song i have to sing, be to you a lovely thing, in your time."

"cause you made the darkest night to shine."

"i never knew you loved me so true, until i heard how on the cross you died."

just sitting on the ledge with our legs dangling over and the bar securing us and preventing us from falling over. (: singing whatever worship songs and whatever hymns that comes to our minds. just meditating on the lyrics, how absolutely meaningful and close to our hearts.

i really love times like these, when i can be free to just soak up in His presence.

yuen and i stayed back to look at the moon and the stars, in the KBL. went out to sing a couple of songs, just describing the beauty of "our Father's world". then we started singing random songs. and then we just started singing praise. (: just being so in awe of everything He created, so touched by His grace and mercy.

anyway, all we could see were stars, but still we were extremely excited over them. then we realised that the moon was actually above us such that we couldnt see it! its suuuuuper pretty! hahaha, wow.

and its like really metaphorical, quoting yuen. hahaha, so true la. its like how sometimes in life we get distracted by so many things. and when we try to look for God, we look at the wrong things and places. but when God finally reveals Himself, all we can do is be filled with wonder and amazement at the sheer beauty of His glory.

haha, anyway. it was really an interesting experience. just being so in awe. and thanking God for everything and just. entrusting everything to Him. those moments were really super carefree. (:

"NO NO DONT JUMP. ITS K, YOU GOT 44POINTS FOR IB. ITS NOT THAT BAD..." hahaha, we were kinda amusing a bunch of sec school kids who spotted us and shouted across, "DONT JUMP OKAY!" HAHAHA. dramattm.

then later as we were walking out of school, we were just singing simple songs, "Jesus loves the little children" and "with Christ in the vessel". hahaha, it was super dark. like seriously. all the lights were off but nvm. we sang all our way through, keeping faith that God'll surely find a way out for us.

we couldnt help but just stop and throw our bags down and laid there near the grey eagle staring up at the sky. (: just watching the clouds drift and the moon was ever so bright and round and huge and clear. awesomeness. hahaha. whenever i do that, i feel super insignificant. but we realise how much God loves us, that He knows each one of us perfectly.

i'm really amazed at His faithfulness. He never fails to answer prayers. no matter how small. the past few days, i've been having like muscle aches and such. so i dont really want to walk that much. and so, lol. i prayed for the backgate to be opened somehow. btw its a really heavy door which closes automatically. but these two days that i prayed, and believed, the door was opened. each time. it was partially closed, which doesnt happen very often. and actually it looked closed. but cause i prayed, and i believed, i walked all the way there to push the door open (i dont normally do that. its quite retarded to push a heavy autolock door w/o a cardkey) anyway, its just like amazing how God answers prayers. even small ones like these. like what yuen said, "His faithfulness extends to the clouds." even though the clouds may be so inconsistent and constantly shifting, but God is able to remain faithful, He is the same yesterday today and forevermore. i was just like smiling all the way home. just repeatedly thanking God for His reassurance and for being so real (X-AXIS :D)

anyway, we're gonna sort out stuff tmrrrrrr. (: i really pray we'll be able to speak, behave and think in a way that is pleasing to You. (:

the verse of today was:
"4Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice.

8Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. \

9Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you."

i've been finding it quite difficult to be happy the past few days, i mean i guess there were times when i was happy, but there were times when i was sad or disturbed. well, here you go. (: this verse popped up. and hehehe, yes. meditate on the good things see. janice, stop being critical k. LEARN to seriously love people. (:

i'll try my best. but i promise you i'm really trying.

God, empower me. i cant do it without you.