fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Saturday, January 16,12:07 PM

YO. :D i'm damn happy k. just slept 12hours. hahaha, awesome la. but sorry david, didnt go for the hougang kids thingy :X hahaha who came? as in the kids.

k, this be awesome. now with cheryl beside me enthuing and bouncing around about how fun prague will be. i think i'm getting influenced. really wanna go nowwwwww. but but $3000 :X k nevermind, GWMAW (God will make a way.) HEEHEE. i suppose i could always work during the holidays and earn it back!

and, study groups lol. i wonder who'd be able to stay out with me to study till 12am. LOL. probably everyone would want to go home at 6pm or sth. hahaha nevermind. i should study somewhere nearer to home so i can walk home after that. dont have to worry about missing the last bus. o.o i should learn some self-defense. maybe i should learn how to appear aggressive and fierce :D nevermindddddd. i think my parents want me to stay out so late actually. 17years of showing that staying at home = sleep, eat, stone around, talking to them. LOL. k study outside = some hope that i'll study.

hahaha anyway, that day was doing ssef till like 5.45am. LOL. i randomly walked to the kitchen at 5.30am and saw my maid preparing breakfast. she must be thinking, "wow janice woke up so early.. for the first time!!!" ... anyway. then the next day xintian and i were kinda dying. haha, sleepy la.

anyway. microbial quorum sensing! hahaha, sounds damn boring. LOL but mdm recommended that! she said its sth new.. so yeah :D WHEE. hahaha, lets all go communiate with our bacteria. "BACTERIA YOU MUST DIE. YES YOU ARE PATRIOTIC. TO DIE FOR MY EE IS AN HONOUR. I CREATED YOU AND YOU MUST BE LOYAL TO ME. C'MON. DIEEEEEE. zomg zomg, please die. PLEASE BACTERIA I BEG YOUUUUU. fine, you dont want to die right. FINE, go ahead and live. GAH." hehe okay random nonsense. but we were having fun. :D

haha doing TOK with daughter is fun laaaaaaa. in the end we'd just ending up crapping. haha what the. seriously. ADAM'S CURSE. sounds like an awesome book. apparently daughter says that the Y chromosome is shortening. LOL. LOL. guess what that means - guys are becoming less guy. maybe not more girl. but less guy. hahaha. ohgosh epic. k damn funny. :D

anyway was watching POTO yesterday. hahaha joshua watched for a while too. seeing him trying to reach that highest sliding note. HAHA EPIC. i was just waiting for that part. hehehe, so cute la. he's quite pro actually. can do the sliding thing so fast. hahaha, too bad he cant reach the highest note. nevermind. JOSHUA SHOULD JOIN SOME SPORTS CCA AND NOT CHOIR. ): ): ):

hi. i dont know why i just sniffed my hand (OCD) gah i smell like a pomelo. -____- and green tea. freak. and supposedly dove hair shampoo (which i cant smell) but nevermind. new bath soap. super strong smell. okay, integration by parts is confusing. i keep forgetting whether to differentiate or to integrate :X

nevermind. oh oh, when xintian and i were at the SAC. we got visited by the scouts. LOL. disturbia: cant focus on TOK. first was jewno who keeps on doing the knee trick... -__- and dad who tried to jew money from me. then the kooner came, haha. xintian so awesome. "train hard k. bye." LOL. okay random. anyway then david came. so much confidence in my ability to wake up early for hougang service. daughter as well. "i'll come if i can wake up." "that means no la." -___- thanks. both of them... then i was saying that if yaseer comes in and disturbs our TOK discussion, i'll seriously.. okay anyway, then later he came in. and happily jewed half of my green tea drink. LOL.

the scouts --> help old ladies cross the road. haha xintian so epic.

and seriously, when she was young. LOL. her dad said that she was really weird. like other kids would bring home like really colorful and nice drawings. but she'd bring home, a blank piece of paper. hahaha.

oh and my mum told me that i was weird when i was young too. like i didnt talk for two whole years. o.o haha, how can that be right. :X

haha anyway, i miss being a kid. i think its fun. nevermind, we must forever remain child-like. not childish. :D

oh and uh, haiti. all those photos of piled up dead bodies. really really sad. must pray for them k. its a really poor country and now its even worse. idk, pray for comfort and grace i guess.

okay. bye!