fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Thursday, August 20,6:57 PM

school gets really boring sometimes. then it gets really interesting.

hahaha, stew's renewal of the mind is very amusing. he's having such a tough time though... haha, these past few days. even i can find innuendos in whatever teachers say. HAHAHAHA. aiyo. econs teacher's 'selling her services' damn epic... its almost as if it was on purpose to torment stew. jiayou anw.

and bio prac was damn epic. with rheza and his bird using its tail and wings to eat instead of its beak.... HAHAHA, he said it was cos of evolution and that its a migratory bird. lol. so funny. oh and, cheryl... haahah, so excited about her first prac on reproduction. AIYO. see? another obstacle for stew to handle. hahahaha.

the last period was funny. yaseer as jean, levia as miss julie, stew as narrator and sandra as christine. hahaha, yaseer was blushing.... hahahaha. epic moments:D

but after a while, it still gets boring and stressful. -.- someone once told me that its just the hormones... once the hormone, i think its serotonin?, wears off, life goes back to normal... -.- back to that dreary cycle. gaaaah. life sucks like that. not sometimes only...

ah heck. my parents make my life worth living for(: i promise to take care of them for as long as i live. i really will. sometimes i wish i can help them... they seem so stressed... all i can do is listen to them so they can destress... talk things through with them so maybe they can be reassured, that the family'll always support them. no matter what.(: and pray for them and all. sometimes, thats all people need i guess..

but, through it all. i know its you who remains the same. yesterday, today and forever. i keep changing idk. sometimes i'm really quiet and all. people ask me whats wrong. but i really dont know. maybe i prefer to be like this. being too noisy really isnt... what i want. i prefer to be alone. like what i said, 'i like being alone' but he still gave me a weird look. ohwell, people are just not used to it.

but i still do get crazy sometimes. idk. sorry everyone. its kinda like a transitional phase for me. maybe i'm growing up. i'm getting more mature:D life's no longer just fun and games. i dont want to hurt anyone. i really dont.