fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Saturday, July 4,9:23 PM

You placed the stars in the sky, and you know them by name.
You are amazing God.
You see the depths of my heart, and you love me the same.
You are amazing God.

Indescribable. hm, this song is very awesome. currently addicted to this song. and another one.
take a bow by leona lewis.

there's no turning back
Its for the better
Baby I deserved more than empty words
And promises
I believed everything you said
And I give you the best I have

So take a bow.
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part and like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
'cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love. All you give me was pretense
So now... Take a bow

super nice. her voice is nice. love that singer. rocks(:

anw, now exams are almost over. just two more subjects. and i dont want it to end. gah. these few days of mugging are so awesome. and when school reopens i'll have to go back to iop. damnit. i hate that life. i'd rather study. or have lessons. just dont throw me a book and tell me to analyse it. -.- and yeah. i really wish i was at least a O level student taking a O level literature paper. but no, i have no experience at all. why cant you understand that. gah. nvm.

so yeah. speaking of these few days of mugging alone. haha, i stoned alot actually. not stone lah. but observed and thought alot.. sitting at polar cafe mugging today. saw a girl. little girl. carrying a handbag0.0! what the. even i dont. hahaha. i was like, whats this world coming too. the influence of society. haha, then i was so amused by that girl. like the way she walked... i have this feeling she watched too much of America's next top model or sth. lol, weird.....

i have no idea why. but. everything is getting really dull now. as in, i miss 4C. haha, even during our O level people, we all supported each other with encouragement and everything. everyone. so friendly and... open. not that here is bad of course. haha, there are really awesome ppl. 'body language for dummies!' hahaha. and like, 'asteeeeeeka' and 'HI FRIENDS:D' haha. so funny. and all the teasing. 'muhammed ali!' hahaha. but its just different. its like. LORMS. LOL. there are just different levels. there's just no time to get to know everyone. -.- whats this.

ah idk. maybe its just JC life. but like, i felt super envious when i saw fional mugging with her friends. how come i cant do that): how come now it doesnt work anymore. whyyyyyyyy):

anw, i just got a new music player. (: so awesome. i love listening to music while mugging. super relaxing. and exciting. hahaha! they contradict. but. its true! at least today i found out that i can survive without my handphone and alan. but i cannot survive without music. haha.

i cant wait to go shopping. HAHA. i realised that i'm always wearing the same clothes. damnit. GAHHHHHHHH. -.- nothing to wear. everything's super expensive nowadays. )x oh what the hell. and my mum says i have to be more girl now.. -.- i suppose that means less shorts and more skirts/dress. oh what the. okay nvm. haha, i keep saying what the. i know. srslyyyyyy. ): pohhui bought 5dresses that day. in like what 4hours. gosh. i was like, how do you buy so many dresses0.0! i have never worn. HAHAHA. gosh.

sigh. okay nvm. here am i again. going back to reality. i really feel sad when all friends come to talk to you about is homework. EE. IAs. TOK. is that the only thing that bonds us in IB? finishing all those together? okay maybe. i suppose so. i have no idea what i'm looking for also. its just.... desperately. gahhhhhhhh. nvm.

Hi. if pohhui reads this she's gonna say i'm all stressed up again. -.- i'm just. extremely tired. burnt out. whatever you call it. physically. mentally, rarely. my body clock is weird. i cannot wake up before 10am. SERIOUSLY. i used to go church at 9am everyweek. now is like.... 11am service... cant even wake up okay!0.0! GOSH!

-i just want to relive it all over again. cos it was the best we ever had. and we'll never be the same again.