ohman. i feeling super sad now.
argh. its crazy okay. this feeling. i miss cedar and 4C so much. i miss our highness, our inside jokes and all the nice nice not snobbish people inside. SIGH. i feel like i just dont belong to ACSI. everything is like so different. the people there aint very high and well, i'm just sad that our class is so cliquish.
i guess me and my friends are counted as the clique, but we do mix arnd with everyone else no? sigh, astika. we are not a clique okay. ): so ming ann settled for saying that we are just a group. LOL. but seriously, i dont know. i feel like i cant fit in well. everyone's not high and they just look at me weirdly. argh, sometimes i dont even feel like myself.
i can feel myself changing, i miss being childish with sherry, giving weird looks to huizhen, talking with avery/zoey, laughing with rachel and being retarded with fiona. gah, IB life is so horrible. i hate it. ):
i feel so different from everyone around me. and i'm getting tired of being different and high all the time. i'm starting to become not high. and its sad.
i gotta figure this shit out. its too close for comfort, its a thief in the night, to come and grab you. its a disease of the mind, to come and control you.:/
i belong to cedar. its where my heart is. when will i start loving ACSI.
i'm tired and so freakingly drained of energy. why do the other schools sound so fun and enthu.
-cos when i heard the VJC and TJC ppl at the party so high and proud of their school, i ended up wondering if IB was the right choice.