fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Monday, July 9,5:01 PM

Like an aeroplane I took flight, fell in love with you that first night. Cause you danced with me and I could see that there was more to life. I'm falling, I'm falling in love with you.

Somewhat happy. I like how things are settling down now. But actually, I'm not very sure either.

Hmmmmm. I'm feeling like I'm in a strange strange mood today. Not sure what I'm doing.

Feel a little off. Feel a little lost as well. Not sure what's expected.

Need to remind myself again and again that these experiences are to shape me, teach me more. Doesn't matter. It's alright to feel inadequate right? After all, we're all definitely not perfect, but we're limited edition. (; Haha, got that from somewhere...

Anyways, I'm moving on with it I suppose. Slowly. And I'll be okay. Right? I hope? Hahahahaha, it never really turned out too well in the past actually. Hmmmmmm, except for that particular one. Maybe you just grow out of it. (:

And I know at the end of it all, I'd have gained something invaluable.

Eugene taught me today, when making a decision you always have to consider whether it'd meet the objective in the first place. Will doing this and that hinder our progress towards the target objective? That's how you factorize the small issues that don't really matter I guess.

So Janice, what's your target objective today? What did you set out to achieve? You left house with no apparent purpose. You live your days with no goal. Did you want to make more friends? Did you want to be part of more projects and more events? Did you want to earn money? What do you want to do with your summer, you confused girl.

You know the importance of goal-setting, you know the importance of plotting small milestones and to celebrate when you achieve them.

So here's your first milestone:
Get getting so uptight and upset about the distraction. Get up, move on and remember that what you're doing will glorify God eventually. The entire concept of holding back and reining in your feelings and emotions out of true love and sacrifice. (: Most of all, through it we learn that God's the most important. The primary. The centre.

Came across this verse. Proverbs 4:23. Above all else, guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life.

Time to start doing so. Anyway need to do some work so I'll continue ponder on this later. How on earth to guard your heart while still loving wholeheartedly. (:

I love writing on this blog, it always helps me to sort out my thoughts and my feelings and teach me to turn back to God. (:

;trachelizo