i had a quarrel with my mum. and my dad emailed this to me. it really makes sense so i'm gonna try to follow this. and all those out there who reads this: I HOPE YOU DO TOO.

Forgiveness Ensures Freedom by Os Hillman, March 3, 2007 See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many. - Hebrews 12:15 In business and life the opportunity to harbor bitterness for a wrong suffered is great. We are given plenty of opportunities to grow bitter from relationships that bring hurt and pain. The writer of the Hebrews passage above admonishes us not to miss the grace of God so that we won't take up bitterness as a response to life's pain. He cautions us against this because he knows that a bitter root grows and grows until it eventually defiles many others through a wake of bitterness. If bitterness is allowed to take root, we become imprisoned to it. God's grace will no longer have as great an effect in our lives. We become ineffective, insensitive, and spiritually dead. We can even become physically ill from it. God does not live in bitterness. He lives in grace. He has provided grace for every person to walk in. One day I was challenged to deal with an individual who hurt me terribly. I was faced with a decision. Would I choose bitterness, or would I choose grace? Oh, how my natural tendency was to choose bitterness. But God provided the courage to choose grace. With that grace came freedom-a freedom to love and even accept the person who was the source of such pain. This is the real place where Christ's power is most revealed. We cannot live without His supernatural grace. Are you in need of grace today? It is there for the receiving. It will take courage to accept it and walk in it. This will be your step to freedom.

ask for GOD's overflowing grace to flow upon you, that you may choose grace over bitterness cos bitterness ends up NOWHERE. (: YAY. ask GOD for courage and wisdom. ask Him to lead your life and LET HIM TAKE CONTROL. (: AMEN.

YAY. i feel happy. although there's no campfire. HAHA.

ohwells. let blog abt OAC. first day, we were at the courtyard, panicking. HAHA. cos everyone no name tag. kena scolded for being so noisy. OOPS. HAHA. anw, then our scissors knife hp and other valuables/contraband items got confiscated. we were like anymore? must check ah... if got anymore. but NO ONE GAVE ANYMORE. so we passed it up. in the bus, we were quite enthu la. whatever the instructors cheer then we also cheer la... and we were quite happy. then the instructor say, "got anymore valuables? better own up NOW. if you have, pass behind' then got somemore. i was like wah!!! i thought we ask so many times! haiyo. then once we reach campsite, then ms poon was like why 3C got so many. SHIT LA. laugh la, laugh la, you think i CARE? so what, so what?
ohwells. so we got briefed. got into the CAMP MODE. that this will be a LONG camp. i got myself PRAYING that i wont get homesick.

FIRST DAY.
had flag-raising. i was like hoping that all the campers know no need to sing. and indeed, no one sang, YAY. campers are so clever! then we had class interaction at MPH. first we played Jacobs' ladder! and cos got 33 ppl so mr chai joined in. and everyone keep stepping om the legs. HAHA. so funny. sharmaine is so pro. HAHA. yay. then we had lunch. we all squeezed in to the 3 tables. so pro right? then we started eating. we got scared cos some ppl said that we were gonna just eat vegetarian food. and i hate veg. ): ohwell. then we had knots and lashing. by instructor cheryl. YAY. she so pro. then we had competition. next, orienteering. we were taught how to use the compass and what were the names and i DESPERATELY NEEDED TO PEE!!! haha. so HANNAH used to reverse pychology thing on me. and i actually held my bladder for 2.5hr!! HAHA. but its bad!!! bad to hold your bladder. nvm, cos this is the first time i've done it for so long!!! then we played games!! YAY. we were supposed to make a sentence for 2 ppl to guess using our blodies in CREATIVE manners! then at first me and hannah was guessing. and we are so smart la. WE ARE THE ZAI TWINS. HAHA. ohwells. then after that, played another round. me and hannah made the letter A. so both of us were standing with our heads against each other and arms connected 90degrees. then we thought start alr. so we kept on standing there. and then we were like eh? why take so long? then we looked up and realised that the rest of the ppl were still discussing. we were like haiyo, finish alr never tell us. then someone told us that havent even started yet la. -MALU!!!- hahaha. then i had to make the letter N. all by myself. so difficult la. i was like contorting my body until i look so funny la. haiyo. leader kelly and yanyi were laughing at us la. ohwells. FOR THE CLASS LOR!!!
then we played the orienteering game!! we were supposed to make a blindfolded yuxin walk round according to the bearings and no of pacing she had to take. and then we were like making poor yuxin walk round and round and round la. dont even know if its correct. haiyo. while the scholars are so smart! they used pencil to draw out and predict the shape la. SMART! haha. then poor yuxin was like walking and walking and until we decided aiya, the scholars method works better than ours so we neglected yuxin and left her alone. the leaders started to disturb her la.. ask her to rub her tummy 3 times, ask her to touch the person infront (who was leader kelly) and blow her face. we were all laughing cos yuxin kept blaming me and hannah la... HAHA. anw, we did do some stuff to confuse her. ;p cheryl tan is so funny when she does the sliding thing with her shoes! HAHA.

anw, then we had dinner. we had dinner at the leaders there cos NO SPACE AT OUR TABLE. somebody didnt want us to squeese more than 10 per table. so me, hannah and shuang yi went to another table. the ISOLATED CORNER. HAHA. inside joke. ohwells.

then blah. blah. blah until.... nightwalk. it was raining and my raincoat was dropping. i sweat until my glasses were foggy. the lady was like you know why the ---- are ----- cos if got water then will grow mouldy. hahaa. i was growing mouldy there. then the lady was like listen, 'chounk, chounk chounk chounk.' 'listen to the silver-crested -----'. HAHA. i was like ok... hHAA. instructor ying ying keep asking us if we were ok. AND ME AND HANNAH KEPT KNOCKING OUR HEADS TOGETHER. becos we share raincoat. HAHA. then blah blah blah...

TONIGHT. HAD A DREAM. I DREAMT OF A LEADER WITH SHORT HAIR COMING TO CHECK IF WE'RE SLEEPING. SHE WENT OVER TO ME AND HANNAH. AND THEN WALK OUT OF THE ROOM. HAHA. i woke up and told HANNAH. she said that SHE ALSO HAD THE SAME DREAM!!! SO PRO. HAHA. we have TELEPATHY cos we're ZAI TWINS! (: then we were like telling everybody. then INSTRUCTOR HWEE YIN overheard us. and said, ya what... got leaders come into the room. ALL THE WHILE WE WERE THINKING IT WAS A DREAM THAT WE SHARED BUT ACTUALLY WE WERE JUST SEMI-CONSCIOUS AT THE SAME TIME! HAHAHA. so weird...

SECOND DAY
we woke up at 5am. had dorm imspection. HAHAA. i rmb cheryl calling instructor 'INSPECTOR' HAHA. so funny. anw, then got more contraband items la.. GRRR

CRUISE! haha. we all had motion sickness, YES, our WHOLE TABLE. haha. so we ate the Motion S pill from huang qin. THANK YOU! (: it was quite dumb. cos we reached there and went to the toilet then the instructors suddenly ask us to go back to the boat. -.- like err. we took 1 hour trip just to go to the toilet. then we had lunch and had heritage trail. sorry, sorry. dont be disappointed. we really appreciate what you've done for us. sorry for being rude, for not giving enough respect. i'm sorry. ):
THANK YOU INSTRUCTOR SHERRI and UNCLE JAMES!!! (: WAH. so TIRED. we had camp prep. (: so fun! HAHA. the msg was good morning school here are today's announcement. i thought it was today 1 o'clock announcement shoe bag sale 5percent!!! HAHAHA. stupid me. but in the end, our group still got the whole msg right!! HAHA. smart us. grrr. how can you laugh? go and tell others. HAH. pls la... your amusement-our embarrassment.. history repeats itself once again. tell others la. laugh some more la. HAH.
and we bathed very quickly. HAH. HAIL OUR PRO-NESS. (:

THIRD DAY
had TOWER! YAY. finally. then we first did ZIPLINE! i wanted to go but had to let the non-LTC ppl go first. then i realised that I ALSO DIDNT DO ZIPLINE BEFORE!!!! but by the time alr no time MY REGRET. ):
then we did rockwall. climbed until my fingers were numb la... i freaked out on the rockwall. i heard everyone cheering me. ): i think i let them down. ohwells. anw, i was like shit shit shit. my hand what happen??? hahahahah. must be holding on to tightly. HAHA. then i went down. HAHAH. ohwells. AND AND AND I REALISED SOMETHING!!! LEADER KATHLEEN AND LEADER WANPING IS MY PRIMARY SCHOOL SENIORS!!! HAAHAHHAHAHA. omgosh. NO WONDER LOOK SO FAMILIAR! HAHA. (: YAY. PCPS ppl ROCK COS WE'RE SO ZAI! (: heh. and i was also anchorman for leader kathleen. i think she very light or something la. i anchor her until very scary leh. i keep feeling gonna fly up. HAHAHA. then instructor ying ying ask me to squat down. leader sunmeng also help to anchor her abit. HAHAHA. so scary. oh dear. then when i finish anchoring, my hands were like all RED la. that is how light she is. haiyo. SCARY. HAHA. i rmb LTC also. LEADER KAREN. omgosh. i anchor until very scared. i also fly up la. haiyo. HAHA. ohwells.

then after TOWER, went for lunch. (WAIT, I THINK I MESSED UP THE SEQUENCE. BCOS OF BAD WEATHER SO ACTS WERE NOT ACCORDING TO SCHEDULE.) HAHA. we had no space so sit on the floor. then they started coming to give us watermelon. i was like huh? ok... then they give us bread... and then CHINCHOW. by then i was getting very confused. NAD LEADER VICKNESHRI AND LEADER SUNMENG VERY NICE. THEY GOT THE INSTRUCTORS TO MOVE SO THAT WE GOT ENOUGH PLACE TO SIT!! OMGOSH! HAHA. so we sit with both LEADERS AND INSTRUCTORS BEFORE. HAHAHA. ISOLATED. then they announce we were having PIZZA??? i was like HUH? PLAYING JOKE ON US IS IT? then i was like CANNOT BE, WHERE GOT SO BOH LIAO. HAHAH. then CHIEF ASK US TO SLEEP. i thought i hear wrongly. HAHAHAHA. SOMEONE* DOES NOT WANT ME TO CALL HER -------- ------. HAHA. ohwells. (:

then the NPCC ppl tell us that MOH ppl come and we're gonna break camp. i was like so sad la. HAIYO. cry cry cry, luckily never, but almost. HAA. then chief told instructors abt break camp, tell them not to tell us wait later dampen our spirits. SO NICE LA. omgosh. but we still know. MY XIN so SUAN. like SUAN MEI YI YANG!!! aiya. then no CAMPFIRE. ): this one really ah... SAD!!! poor avery la. all the planning. ): all the campfire leaders too. ): poor wood, kena chop alr then never incinerate. ): wah wah. i was looking forward to it la... MY ONLY REASON FOR GOING OAC WAS FOR THE CAMPFIRE!!! ): HEH. ohwells. then when in canteen, i was packing my stuff. i discovered LIGHTER!!! i had 4 lighters. so i was like aiya, 3C, we make our own campfire!!! and attempted to light all four of them at once. but i only could light 2. HAHA.. lousy la... ;p

anw, we made the instructors -------------- and they made some of us ------------. so touching can!!! HAH. i'll never forget them. NEVER. EVER. (:

this is the end of my OAC journey. ): i wanna go again. RECAMP!

DO A PETITION! JOIN US AND SIGN! AT LEAST WE TRY. EVEN IF NOT APPROVED. AT LEAST. AT LEAST WE SHOW THAT WE TRIED. (: