fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Wednesday, February 14,8:28 PM

valentines

HELLO everyone!
HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY! (x

yay, i loved TODAY, for it made me feel loved. but the sense of guilt still lingers... ahh whatever.

anw, i am HAPPY. (: got lots of presents. HAHA. some ppl from my class is jealous cos i got a present from ______ omgoodness la... its just like A PRESENT.. LOL. why so excited. anw, the present smelled nice... (: i gave presents to alot of leaders this year. hmm. let me recall, chief, ac sharron, weiting, lyana, ehh, -let me think- pei chun, jessica, alicia, geraldine and -another one i forgot. oops. paiseh- HAHA. yep yep. and i've got presents from chief, ac sharron, weiting, lyana and jessica! (: JEALOUS, anyone. HAHA.

SOMEONE threatened to smash my brains if i got one from yanyi la... luckily she's not related to me... (: YAY. and i'm most probably gonna get a specs like hers cos my mom thinks i look nice in it la... -.-

aargh. i am so angry at HANNAH TAY. our chi test was about some plant growing out of the stone and hannah tay thought shi2 feng4 jian1 meant cave man but she got higher than me la... -.- sigh. she WIN LIAO LOR. haha. (: its ok. haha. anw i FAILED. my chinese is LOUSY. i'll never get to pass HCL.
):

haha. 'OUR SKIT IS HORRIBLE RIGHT?'
'QUITE LA.'

HAHA. my heart sank.. ): things just dont go our way. why why why? sigh. i feel guilty. i know sorry doesnt help but my heart is as suan as suan mei (sour plum). ahhhhh. whatever. i shall not keep on going like this. i wonder if its my fault? or is it really just our script. perhaps i am thinking too much. but yet... HAH. nothing just makes sense nowadays.

life is a transit to HEAVEN. we're like the hydrolic (? spelled correctly?) action. we are supposed to be like the river and erode ppl to bring them to HEAVEN. (: HAHA.

adam khoo talks sound cool, i wanna GO! go there and have more things to reflect.

yvonne, you never give me present! hmpf. sigh..

i thank GOD for not being me a person that is desperate for attention. i'm glad i GOT YOU. thank You for CHOOSING ME. thank You. thank You for Loving me with AGAPE LOVE. with never-ending never-dying love. that i may LOVE others too. (: YAY.

haha. wt cant get over ______ haha.

sometimes, i cant help but ask, why them? why? haha, i know we're not supposed to question GOD's plan but... ): its ok.
what does it mean? i dont understand. its complex. friends or studies? i thought we're supposed to care about the people around us, rather than studies. i mean we're the river right? we're supposed to bring people to Christ. i dont understand. pls guide me, lead me and help me put my trust in You for i am blinded. uncover my eyes, let me see Your glory.

argh. confused. i am glad i have a complete family. i dont know but why? deny everyone? i dont understand. what does it mean? to deny yourself and take up your cross? i dont understand..

bleah. i realise i DREAD CCA. i dont know why ever since i leaded CCA. i'm starting to get confused. what is Mr Chua saying? argh. just dont let me be in EXCO. haha. leadership positions. for what? there are people who got so DISILLUSIONED bcos of too many leadership positions. no time, its sad to see their passion die off...

i hope i dont.

is it me or is my heart aching? i keep hearing weird sounds inside me. i heard my ear drums making some drumming noises, my stomach growling of hunger and just weird noises. HAH. oh well. haha.

i cant believe this is such things as ANG APPRECIATION ASSOCIATION, MICHAEL CHIA FAN CLUB AND ANDREW CHAI CHANG YI FAN CLUB. haha.

'half-circle, full-circle, half-circle, A. half-circle, full-circle, right angle, A.' HAHA. lame la....

yes fine JOY. the quote, 'one day you cry ok, 2nd day better not be so much, 3rd day should not be crying already!!!" is by CHANG JOY LEE of sec 4S. i heard that the sentence, life is ______________________________. is from adam khoo's course. cheh. i thought you so pro... ;p

i LOVE myself. this is just to boost my self-confidence. (: YAY. haha. smashed to pieces. did you hear it crack?

): lalalala... i shall to STOP -as in TOTALLY- stop this stupid thing. ahhhhh. its ok... HAHA. everyone says that. or if not its, 'aiya, its like that one la...' sigh. oops. i'm not stopping. ohwells.

I LOVE CEDAR SO MUCH i could cry. haha.

i got so many presents. (: this fact resounds in my largely enlarged head. (: YAY. everyone loves me. (: sigh.

can you please stop nagging me to off the computer. sigh. what's the problem? what what? sigh. arrrrrrggggggghhhhh. GRAH GRAH GRAH! hmpf. i dont care liao la. I ROCK! i LOVE MY GOD, MY FAMILY (?) and MY FRIENDS. how? i love them too much. perhaps its just too much. sigh. i am so luan. but no one is able to help. tell me what to do. no one but YOU. aargh. sometimes, i wish i just wished i could get an immediate answer... but the fruits of the Spirit are love, joy, peace, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, gentleness and longsuffering. patience. must be PATIENT ok, JANICE TAY JIA HUI. (: YAY.

WHOOO. let's close this blog. i feel so luan.. bleah. O LEVELs. in 1 year and 37 weeks time. its time to count down. (:

YAY. ;p weiting is dying to know who's VIP. see la... haiyo. (: i love GOD more than VIP okay? and VIP is not important. stop teasing me. i LOVE GOD. rah... rmb my resolution? admire GOD only. no one else is able to match up. (: YAY-ness.

i think i rock do you? i am REFLECTIVE! (: i love to reflect. (: i feel wise. ;p oops. jk.

i am SO RANDOM. (:

i love mummy's presents. so CUTE. i love hannah tay and her stone. i love jessica's nail clipper -quite cute la... hmm. haha.- i LOVE YOU and YOUR PRESENT YOU GAVE TO ME. its more valuable than anything i ever received. THANK YOU. (:

i'm hungry. i shall feast on my presents. HAHA, no la. i dont normally do. only those that spoil easily. everyone knows me well. they gave me FOOD. (: heh.

JANICE ROCKS.