fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Friday, December 1,12:37 AM

disappointed

hey. continue from the previous posts.

these is memorials to leaders who helped me, no matter mentally or whatever:
-leader weiting cos she's my senior haha. no la. really. THANK YOU SO MUCH. you are one of my sole reasons i agreed to continue with the camp.
-leader weitings' group of friends
-leader lyana cos she belayed me and always makes me smile. (x omg. sounds so rou ma.
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nvm. i shall not list them out. so malu. but i will always thank you all in my heart. (:

anw, i am chao glad i survived camp. i always get homesick and stuff. yes, the girl at orientation. sigh. i dont care alr. i am happy. that i survived LTC at all. and i tried my best not to give 'sian' looks haha. i tried to make my group successful. I TRIED. altho we did not win, but we did it. we SURVIVED camp.

and anw, moving on to CCA camp. the camp that made my week shine. i thought that this camp would be very sad cos xinying, my best CCA friend is leaving, yes, my BEST!!! sigh. she bluff me say try try only in the end, left for IP. omg. i want to strangle her. i have thought before the future of CMC. how to make it better, how to change their mindsets that CMC is a lousy club. omg. the word lousy irks me. so what if other CCAs are 'better' cant you respect our CCA too? sigh. dunno what i saying la.

sigh. nvm. oooh. and i UPGRADE liao. from CMC member to CMC logistics officer (photography).
cool yeah? hahaha.
okay, i gotta grow up and be more un-forgetful. (:

CCA camp day one
arrived in school. LATE again. for 15 min. when i reached, everyone laughing. no, not just at anything. at ME. guess why. i was wearing my LTC masking tape nametag. i was blurr.. i was like huh? and everyone just laugh louder like ??? so nvm. i joined in sit down. i was confused. haha. symptom of either heat exhaustion or heat stroke. nah, joking. then we played amazing race. our group called homo-sapiens. which means 'wise men' which means humans. see, i am so wise... ;p ok, nvm. so we got third yippeee!! then we played find the leaders. -.- as in the 3 CCAs EXCO. including me and hannah. so we went off to gether. we hid in the yellow recycling bin which the LTC leaders had hidden before. haha. mei you chuang yi. then they found us so quick la. they made hannah promise to stay here and wait for them as we were tired. (they very nice) then since only hannah promised so i went off to hide but dunno where to hide so i hide in the bushes in btw level 1S toilet and recycle bin. i hide until all the mosquitoes nearly sucked me dry. hahaha. then finally another group found me. the first group that found me was very pissed so int he end we gave both teams points. hahaha. wen ti jie jue.then we prepared for concert and we finished everything in the time given la.. tom boat vs. jack falcon. hahaha. mission impossible: in the carribean.
we played ball games. and more games. free and easy. we got not enough of captains ball so some of them started to play again while the rest of us lazy ones prepared for shower and stoned. HA. then we went for bath. went with hannah. met lyana and weiting at the staircase.waited with them. weiting is SO selfconscious la. she went in every 10 min to check on them and tell them to lower vol. then suddenly hp rang. food come, joy need help. nice nice me volunteered to help lyana and weiting. we went to first level empty corr. to see that the food uncle alr bring ing the food in. so we ran across courtyard where there were many leaders and red cross ppl preparing for red cross sec 4 farewell. then i help joy hold a GREEN hongbao. haha. never see before green one. so cool. then lyana and weiting felt redundant and started talking to a.c. suria who was at the weird elevated thingy at court yard, looking at their banner. joy finished paying uncle. i ran over to them, keeping a clear distance of 3m. waiting fo rthem to finish. as LTC just ended i didnt want to get too close to the leaders just in case. lol. so i waited. then they pulled me in and asked my whether i was scared scared of a.c.suria. anw, i didnt know what to say. so i just nodded. then they were like haiya she scared of all leaders la. that day, LTC alr ended liao, she still dont dare to wave to us. i was like so pai-seh!!! omg. then chief, leader wanping was also there. anw, i was running away but a.c. suria followed us back to the toilet.so we sat there and hannah said my watch spoiled liao. super freaky la. every few hours will reset itself then i was like oh no, did i spoil it? it was my PSLE good-luck present la. anw, in the end we had so much time to bathe. we had dinner which was very yummy. actually all the food was nice la. omg. i am in LOVE with camp food. one of the reasons i am camp-sick now. nvm. next mon, i go camp again. (: and one lucky thing abt being same group as yinmin was that she eat very little so i ate like one-thirds of all her food la. haha. yumm. anw, then we had item preparation. we practised like 5 times. i kept forgetting what to say la. hahaha. we hanged around and saw alot of leaders e.g. leader alicia, leader jessica, leader deborah, leader pei chun, leader sarah, leader anabella, leader wanning, etc. hahaha.then we had concert. quite fun la. then we had night walk. actually, its not really lor. cos most of the time we were blindfolded. hahaha. played CSI. at the first station, i was nthg. 2nd station, i was medicine bottle. 3rd station, i was the little rich girl who got kidnapped. lol la. then we had night cap. ate 5 butter biscuits. omg. i LOVE butter biscuits. hahahhaha, so does yolanda. anw, we brushed up and had de-brief. then rolled out our sleeping bags. i kept moving my sleeping bags. i ws ermm. officially introduced to 'billy' and 'john' pls dont ask my who are they. hannah and ella is PERVERTS. nvm. i shall not elaborate WHAT they were TRYING to DO or WHAT they were TALKING abt. what blood tranfusion. hannah is mad. =.= oh ya, lyana was there too. they were talking pervertic stuff. then after bathing, weiting, peichun and peiying, aamilah, rasyiqah, joy came back. then weiting and leader peichun. (oops. i nearly spelled leacher la) okay anw, dont ask me why i am still calling her leader. they joined us and they started to get more and more -AHEM-. so me, jin saw and sarah was like sitting there, raising our brows and staring at them open-mouthed. and they were fighting over the poor yellow pillow la. they were so violent la. hitting each other and pulling the pillow. sigh. poor xy was like complaining. anw, at 2, leader peichun went for sentry and everyone NEARLY quietened down. (so who's the root of all the -AHEM-ness? okay, nvm. i dont mean anything) so yea. i fell asleep at 3.30 and was awakened at 4 by some sleepy ppl who came back from sentry. then me, lyana, ella, weiting went for sentry to gether. was told to just sit down at the table outside staff room. almost immediately, lyana and weitingfell asleep on the table. btw, at the table was leader jessica, leader alicia, gillian and leader wanning. anw, they were doing band stuff. then in the end ella slept. then i sat there, twiddling my thumbs cos i couldnt sleep.lol. leader jessica was like: wah, janice, LTC, then now not sleepy meh?
i also dunno leh. i very weird one... sigh.then finally after very long wait, went back to hall. and slept from 6 to 6.30. there fore i slept a GRAND TOTAL of 1 hr 30 mins. WOW. hahah. oknvm. brushed up and ate BUTTER BISCUITS!!!!! hahah and eggy sandwich. yumm. then we played telematch. got third again. first we had to find a certain no of coins.we were like 3rd group from last. hahaha. then we jump in the garbage bag, bite apple without touching apple, lyana poured the plate of ice into her mouth and melted it. spit it out in to the cup. yew... then not enough then we dont care. supposed to blindfold and water the plants then leader peichun kept cha-shou-ing. hahaa. ella was pulling one side, leader pei chun the other. hahahaha. so funny. then in the end, leader pei chun's shirt was wet with water and lyana's saliva. and the funnier thing was that leader pei chuns' shirt was green like a plant!!! haha. in the end got third. wooooooooooo. hahahah. so fun! CCA session. wha. the ppl suddenly so dead again. sigh. c'mon. be enthu la. anw, they were like so bad la. they were sleeping when mr chua talking. he gave up trying to talk to them and in the end discussed with the EXCO abt 2007 stuff.finally doing something as part of the EXCO.then we had games. the animal sound one. and the haha game. the one where you have to go haha. hahahaha. hahahahahaha. haha. so funny. anw, everyone was like resting la. EXCEPT me again. and once again another leader commented that everyone was sleepy except ME. WOW. i am both nocturnal and normal. haha. ok, nvm. anw, i am just weird. then had reflections and big sweep where i swept first level empty corridor with dustpan and shoe becos ella was hitting lyana with the broom. hahahha. then biscuit time!!!! then we had debrief. we won third prize!!!! yay!!! hahaha. then suddenly, leader peichun said, now not LTC so no need to sit up straight. i didnt know she referring to me so i just like look around. but then see no one sitting straight then i looked back at her. and she was pointing to me. i was like huh? and everyone started laughing again. WOW. so i get laughed at the starting and the ending of camp. hahaha. i feel honoured. anw, i am missing and reminsceing how nice camp food is -saliva dripping on laptop- hahah. good morning anw. omg. my sleeping time is getting more and more irregular. nights.- loves, caijing.