fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Friday, February 5,2:16 PM

ohnooooo. i missed choir today. sadfaceeeeeeee. i wanted to go to school later for choir. now actually. but. -__- seriouslyyyyyyyyy. gah, we're singing to paultan. dont want to see him. he'll scold me for missing school and yet coming back for choir.

nvm, voice i give you some rest. my throat feels super itchy la. :X what did i eat... ): OH RIGHT. LOL, i rmb now. nutella and julie cream biscuits. CHOIRFOOD. (y) yummmmm. hahaha.

anyway got quite a lot of homework to catch up on...
1) world lit outline, help anyone? haha, nvm.
2) econs ia 3. (nooooo. dont even have article. gah.gah.gah.)
3) bio ia 20 (i dont have the results... boonhwee... send it later so i have excuses not to do it. haha just kidding. (: )
4) econs DRQ (o.o so many)
5) kinematics (my rate of workdone needs to accelerate.)
6) bio pract 21 (need to get some results.. :D please? (: )
7) bio essay and mcq again... but its not with me so for now. i wont do this. hahaha.

okay, this is it. my homework list. for now. i have my saturday morning and afternoon gone alr. sunday entire day gone as well. sooooo. start work soon. must.

janice needs to be hardworking right! (in unison: YES!!!)

janice needs to choose to be happy right! (in unison: YES!!! thanks arthit. we'll make the RIGHT --> choice. haha to be sad | happy. the ---> right one. hahaha. (: )

janice needs to persevere. (Janice Tay become a fan of "i need to study" -opens book- "sigh lazy... boring..." -closes book.) haha okay i made that up but i became a fan for sth like that. :D

janice needs to eat. (no i'm just kidding. bah, getting real fat. LOL. nvm. eat less or sth. try. -__-)

janice needs to stop feeling bored and learn to be happy when she's doing work! hahaha. okay i come back to read my previous blogposts quite a lot. so maybe i'll read this and feel motivated. (: heehee.

i'll be studying somewhere near the esplanade. marina square or sth on saturday. i think. after the date with dad thing. hahaha, crap. i'll be wearing a dress. okay scrap that. i'll probably change then go study. (: anyone wants to join.

alright, study hard!!! :D its our last year (LOL, last year was the first year. o.o oxymoron/paradoxical?.) nvmmmm. hahaha confused.

okay, thanks for letting me bully you! hahaha. (: was fun. hahaha nvm. where there's a demand for bullying, there's a supply of people to be bullied. i know where to get my supply. haha. :D

"To the stoning rock who thinks Choir rocx, loves Alan Tecsing, gives support and advice when I'm down [... And, oh, my soul's so worry...] HAPPY BIRTHDAY. (confidential)" hahahahahaha. yay i like this. i dont just THINK choir rocks, i know. (: well sometimes me and yuen likes to stone.

ohfine, *yuen and i.... nuts. english. haha nvm. thanks so much! its quite funny talking to you. quite insightful too. i guess. (: thanks for putting in so much effort. ^^ haha must truly learn from you.. (:

i cant believe next week is the last week for bio ee. nooooo, mdm i miss you! hahaha. i miss the bacteria too. but nvm. hahaha. (:

To Mdm Reena (hahaha dad, i can spell :D) nvm
THANKS SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING. I THINK YOU MADE BIO EE SUPER AWESOME AND FUNNY AND AWESOME -OHWAIT I SAID THAT ALR- ANYWAY, you made it super cool for us (just realised CAPS was on. haha nvm) you made it really interesting for us when you owned everyone. hahaha esp yaseer. and kh. haha and always going like, "LOO-ZER." haha and funny stuff like that. thanks for helping us with the rotary evaporator. thanks for answering our weird questions. thanks for tolerating our noise. thanks for tolerating our nonsense. sorry for giving you trouble too. i truly appreciate your hardwork and all. (: hahaha, i cant help but laugh whenever i think about all the funny incidents we had in the bio lab. (: ohman, i miss ee so much now. nvm. take care alright. we'll come back to see you and stuff. ^^

(: i really feel so grateful for my mum. talked to her quite a bit. i guess she really has more experiences and understand how i feel. (: i'm so thankful for my mum and daddy. think they're the best parents in the world. (well, unlike others, i have other parents to choose from. hehe. just kidding.) but yeah, thanks so much. (:

hahaha thank you for everything you've done, for everyone in my life. i should count my blessings. i should focus on the stars. i need to remember. (: keep reminding me of your Goodness. help me to see the love behind every nagging/scolding/whatever, that every hurtful word, every hurtful action was not intentional. as my friend said, the silver lining in every cloud. (:

and this needs to be my life goal for this year: to learn to love. (:

by the river piedra i sat down and wept.