fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Wednesday, December 16,7:14 PM

yet another day at the bio lab...

woke up late again :X anyway, my condo's basement is infested with cockroaches seriously. ugh. i keep having to pause and wait for them to move away. see, me be polite right. hahaha, cockroaches first.

i'm listening to this song called flying without wings. its a pretty song! (:

everybody's looking for that something,
one thing that makes it all complete,
you find it in the strangest places
places you never knew it could be.

some find it in the face of their children,
some find it in the lover's eyes
who can deny the joy it brings
when you've found that special thing.
you're flying without wings.

so pretty right. there's eyes and children. haha my two obsessions. :D

hahaha i love my new blogskin. cause she has such pretty eyes! but you see, they're not really clear. its like cloudy. hahaha, so cool ;D

anyway, life is really slowing down much now. i wish i had the answers to why. but, sometimes i just feel like i dont know what to say anymore. sometimes i just wish that there were fewer people around. it feels so crowded sometimes.

i guess i've changed a lot. more like evolved. sometimes i dont really recognise myself. where's that noisy girl! but then again, who was the one who told me to shut up. i have no idea la. i used to resent that. "whats wrong with being noisy?"

the truth is, i really want to thank you now. maybe perhaps deep within me, there was always this longing to stay quiet, remain as the observer. i dont want to make anymore mistakes. i've seen what the mouth can do- made me screw up all these. i like staying quiet.

but because of this, people are not used to this i guess. always asking why so emo. or wondering, why dont you talk to me anymore. its not that i dont like to talk to you all. cant you see, its this new school and environment that changed me. when i'm with you all, you know. i do sometimes change back to that noisy girl once again. i just need time to adjust. to feel safe again. so that i can once again be myself.

please, understand.