fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Friday, March 7,9:25 PM

its a cruel cold hard world out there, indeed.

i never did occur to me how strong the scholars have been. if i was in their place, i would be wailing for home a long time ago. they really would miss home, i guess. if only i could do sth..

why is it that reading people's blogs, i get a very suan suan feeling. we used to be good friends. are we that close now? i mean, okay forget it. people change, feelings change, everything changes (but You, of course)

i'll admit, sometimes i really miss you all. i really do. missing the times we sat at second level empty corridor, singing chinese songs, waking up at 3am to clean prawns, or maybe just talking. but yet sometimes, i feel so distant, that i just wished that somehow we weren't that close.

its not that you* dont want to be close for that matter. but your attitude has changed. and well, not that its bad but i guess, you're just worried about your performance in school. i dont really have much to say anyway. but i just wanted to say that: you can still talk to me about stuff. even though i might not be the best person or 'ideal person' you would want to talk to. if you want lah, i guess i always have a listening ear. but then again, hahaha. new friends do make your life happier since you dont face as much problems (since you're with them for a shorter period) enjoy your sec 4 year lah.

and, i dont know why i am so mean. sometimes, i do neglect people. i am really sorry okay. our study group never did work out huh. hahaha. well, next tues! we'll see how again.

cca really is quite frustrating before it starts but once its starts, i'm happy like anything like that. maybe becos the people are really very nice. mr chua went like, 'eh friend' which resembled mrs chew so much that i couldnt stop laughing. hilarious.

i really really think sherry is so funny. even though we like to suan each other, in the end we'll both be okay. hahaha, she along with cheryl and hui yu always makes me laugh so hard okay. this kuku people. and priyanka too. she's sooooooo funny. gosh gosh.

today i was cutting my hair (trimming actually) in class. cos it was poking my eyes. and its super freaky lah. ahhahaha. KUKU.

oh well. i'm feeling a little weird these days. i think i seem a little weird these days. do i act weird? lol.

okay but anyway, i wanted to say sth but i forgot. ah, crap.

oh YES. i've been trying very very hard to memorise and do my QT. i want to fulfill my promise to myself.

oh and we've been training in gym. (: i feel stronger. no wait, let me rephrase that: i feel stronger bcos my muscles are aching every minute. does that make sense? hahahah. crazy.

i think i'm crazy. yzarc. yeah. nvm. hahaah, let me quote this and translate this: actually, deep down inside, everyone can act well. dont we? we do put on alot of acts right? when we're sad we cheng qiang, when we're angry we tolerate, when we get frustrated we pretend not to care. why. why. why. so ROAR. sometimes too much things will make you explode. hahaha, unless you talk about it! talk talk talk talk, neccessarily.

i feel a strange emotion inside of me. hahaha. i think i surprise myself. i always do stuff that surprises myself. like this sentence. because i'm surprised that i would actually say that since it would definitely means that i do not think before i act. lol