'blinking back the tears' very emo meh.

many times, thats what we do. dont we?

i'm confused. i want to tell someone whats happening to me. i want someone to tell me whats wrong with me.

maybe its true then. silence is golden.

maybe i just dont get along well with people.

but then again, whats the point.

do i seem childish to you? to many people, i'm just a lame, retarded person. i wonder if anyone really will miss me if i tried to be serious all the time. its just not me.

you do matter alot to me you know. but, i guess the best way to love sometimes is to let go. are those words you wrote on your valentines' day card true? i need someone who will tell me my faults, so i can change. whats wrong whats wrong what wrong.

wait, you're right. i'm getting all emotional again. LOL. but wait, humans do have emotions what.

anw, today was quite a weird day. went to sheng shiong to eat and my family sat next to a man.

after a while, he turned around and started to talk to my father.
'you're really blessed.' he said.
after talking for a while, he started to point at me which was quite freaky. then he said loudly, YOU. i prophesise that YOU will be a leader. and not just a leader, but a CORPORATE leader. i have no idea what that means.

he said, 'the key to success is to want to succeed.' he emphasized the importance of maintaining good relationships. he emphasized on not being jealous of those who are better than you. he said, dont be selfish. whatever information you have, SHARE. bcos information is meant to be shared. so here i am, sharing what i have learnt from him. whatever it is, no matter if he is drunk or what, i really thank GOD. bcos right now, i need an assurance of who i am, whether what i am doing is right. at least he boosted my confidence. ahahaha.

but i guess, its always His Divine Intervention. that leads me on the right path. He is always there for me. i want to put it right again. i love You.