fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Wednesday, June 27,7:50 PM

keep holding on, indeed.

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NIV)

today's verse. (: surprising huh? how GOD can just touch us thru' little ways. (:

ohwells. i dont want to comment on CCA but, well. i should be closing my blog soon. i try one week first. if i cant cope, then i'll close my blog. yup. i can give up everything but GOD(: so yeah. (:

i should catch up on my studies. bye! :D

i really love my seniors! :D

Tuesday, June 19,4:28 PM

death notice

i come today to blog with a sombre and serious tone.

someone died. someone important in my life. ): very important.

he taught me how to keep time, take note of the time. he reminded to me go to school on time and go to places punctually. he was with me 24/7. i miss him so much. ):

it's my watch. he died on the day i did not wear him for once but put him in my bag. and then, he just died. ):

i quickly tried to operate on it but i couldnt save him. my mum brought him to the watch hospital but the watch doctor said, 'cannot work alr.' my mum said, 'why?' he said, 'go ask me.'

did i kill him? am i a murderer? did i, with my bare hands, kill someone so important to me? what did i do? ): now, i need someone else to keep time for me. but... i miss my watch. he was so young!

he was only four years old.

i miss him still..

Sunday, June 17,8:05 PM

-hugs!

hello! :D no more camps.. ): i miss camps.

i dont ever want to forget. all those good memories makes me wanna turn back time to then. just to savour that moment. the first time to a hotel, the first time going on a wild wild wet ride, the first time i sang for worship, the first time i stepped into secondary school, the first time i went for camp, the first time i was a leader in a camp, the first time i slept on a breakwater.. all those memories, i dotn ever want to forget!! :D

i just love it all so much! :D

esp. sleeping/sitting on the breakwater. alone. by yourself. you get time to think. how great and wonderful is our Maker, our Creator who created all these. the wind that whispers His love for us, the view that is just so breath-taking. i can just never emo at the beach cos everything is so beautiful. rather than the buildings, the cold hard walls. of course, it enabled us to use the computer.

but still, the beach is the best dont you agree?

time passes so fast. i'm sec three alr. isnt it so fast? i just wish i had something worthwhile in my life. i want to do make an impact on people's life, just make a difference.

i'm so foolish.

the time was right, the atmosphere was right. everything was right. except me. they were asking for those who wanted to make an impact to come forward and they will pray. but i didnt. just because no one else did.

peer pressure again.

others werent ready, my friends werent ready. but i was. but i chose to follow them. i'm so foolish, dont you think? tsk.

i really miss camps. i miss MATTHEW and all the cute kids and whatever they said and did! :D oh man. miss them so much! but at the same time, i miss school.

but i miss church. more. now. cos of camps.

school feels so imbalanced now. i dont know.. school's just messed up. ): i was emo-ing during YaYA camp cos of school. ): school makes me feel sad, church makes me high! but i must change that! and make myself happy during school! i miss SILLY SHERRY! and my sensitive hair INSPECTOR CHERYL, and my smart, cheeky ZI CHILDISH! i miss them sooooooo much! not to forget my recess partner (who currently plans on not eating recess to DIET!! ): ), yuxin! HAHA. i miss everything. almost everything.

but well, YaYA camp. yeah, i mean i only loved it for a few stuff. like above, the worship! i'm so super sad! i lost my voice lah! i cant even sing one octave! ruth wanted me to be backup singer then i was like croaking, huh like that you also want me to sing. tsk. ): i want to sing! so i cheong-ed and sang lowly with my dear zhi qi. (: then after that, my throat got bettter. then can sing during worship! i love to WORSHIP! :D our Lord! hallelujah! :D <3

and matthew is so cute! cuter than alexis alr! matthew is best! :D -hugs! he's so smart lah! yet so cute! :D yay!

JEHOVAH ROPHE! the Lord my Shepherd. like a sheep recognizes the shepherd's voice, i did. but why didnt i FOLLOW! :( nvm!

today. i learnt that there is a right time for everything.

Thursday, June 14,7:49 PM

HEY! i'm back from camp again! :D

HAHAHA(x Jehovah Rophe! the Lord our Shepherd! :D

so fun! will have another camp tmr! :D WHEE!

:/ i never study leh. ): hmm. how? HAHA. okay lah. better go study asap. (:

Friday, June 8,11:46 PM

BOO!

HELLO! back from cameron highlands(:

i missed everyone! :D -HUGS!

i know everyone miss me too. (:

i feel so childish all of a sudden! i wanna be childish! :D

but sometimes i wonder if my thinking is what: innocent, childish, naive or dont know what's going on. hmm. no idea. nvm

CHEESE AND WHISKERS! :D

Saturday, June 2,12:27 AM

my heart aches for you. my GUARDIAN ANGEL. disillusioned. what made you think He doesnt exist? i never thought that you would lose your faith so easily. that makes me sad. but, then again, i miss the OLD you. you've changed but who hasnt?

Friday, June 1,10:22 PM

WHEE. (:

:D i'm HAPPY. i bought a new camera. (: DMC-TZ3 i like it! :D HAHHA. shant boast about it. i've got better things to do. but... i'm really happy with it. they gave us a free mp3. for some weird reason. we told them it wasnt in the package but.. they still gave us! FREEBIES. in the PC show! :D freebies! ooh, i like. HAHAH.

then. something really bad came. :/ ARGH. freaked out for a while. then calmed a little. but still freaking out. came home immed talk to her bro! HAHA. oh my. take care you, big one. (: not that your big. but take care. Do not fear, only believe. Mark 5:36 (ESV) yup yup.

dont fear her, only believe that GOD will make things right again. cos He has Supremem Power over ALL. (:

ah, but anw i was really worried. :/ CHLOROFORM. GAH. what are FAMILIES for? why didnt i appreciate mine? oh my, i cant believe this happened. and he actually said.. he was going to play games while he was watching _________ on the floor in pain? WTH. what? oh my.

my NEW resolution: GIVE ___________(big one) my 100%! :D

(: thank you so much for giving JANICE your 100% anyhow. thank you! :D

today, went to the beach. had alot of fun. but was worrying about smtg else lah. ARGH, tkae care BIG ONE. (:

crashed CL meeting AGAIN. HAHAH. (x

ah, nvm. i was rollerskating today. then i saw AHMA LYANA. HAHAH (x she was rollerblading too! :D ah. i love rollerblading. just before i had to return the rollerskates i went off rollerskating by myself. so wonderful, having the breeze in your face, and just that motivation to carry on. to keep on going and even if i lose my balance, i can quickly regain it. and even if i fall (which i'm proud to say i didnt), i know that i must pick myself up. (: you know. you dont always have your friends to save you from falling. AHEM. HAHA. their hands/arms are not METAL BARS either. :D AHEM AHEM! yeah. (: but, i know i'll cope. i have to. soon. without other's help. (: (PW, my hand is aching now! TSK you lah! dont hold so tight okay! you know how to rollerskate alr! next time no need knee guard ah! :D)

i love to rollerskate! and i love teaching others how to feel the wind in their face too. AHEM AHEM AHEM! HAHAH. i taught P to skate! :D i helped the SAINTS too. :D HAHAH. CL ppl are so nice. thank you for AH BOING! :D thank you MA YANJIE! :D i love my ah boing!

EMO CUSHION! i'll definitely hug it if i cry. but if its not with me, i'll hug HONG. (:

AHAHAH (x anw it rained then stop and rained and stop. HAHA.

but the sky was beautiful!

and guess whose BIG feet are these? MINE! (x

SWASH! :D we're GEOG students! SWASH SWASH! HAHA. so cool right?

SEE WHAT WE MADE! :D HHAAHA.

IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A GIRL then PW go and put moustache. bad P! TSK

AFTER PLASTIC SURGERY

ZI SANG SIT ON CEDAR! HAHAH. BAD BAD! HAHA. pw get it? :D

FOR THE SAKE OF P, who finds this photo of ME so funny. (x love me too much.

OH. PEIWEN the P took this. :D she wants me to tell everyone that actually, she is WORTHY of joining CMC. TSK.

HAHA. it was quite fun today lah. thank you all so much.

and we didnt emo much. only when we were leaving to go home. even when me and pw and zoey and zisang was singing emo songs also sing dao CHAO happy one. 'keep holding on... there's nothing you can SSAYYYYYYYYY! nothing you can DDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOO!' and is super high-pitched. HAHAH. OH MY! PW!!! GOSH. ah well, i saw IDOL today too. (x that made me happy! even if i took 45 min to rush there but only see her for 5min. (: right, IDOL? mean IDOL think i dont know how to walk to the beach! i mean, although i didnt walk there by myself cos i was afraid i get lost but at least my friend know how to go! :D HAH. :D

thank you.

STAY STRONG, BIG ONE. the BIGGEST ONE above will be looking out for you. :D cos HE loves you! i <3>