CL GCE O levels are over. and its sort of holidays now.
holidays are meant to be fun and relaxing. but somehow i have to struggle past each day. i'm just exhausted all the time and i cant seem to get to sleep. i want to do something meaningful this hols like take up sth new like aikido.. or find a job.
but now, all i'm thinking about is studying. whats wrong with me man.
perhaps i'm so happy with my result that i'm scared my results will drop next year. i keep wanting to study, which is so irritatingly weird. and i just let myself go to sleep instead. hahah. then i'll wake up feeling mean for sleeping. hahah. thats retarded!
i miss school but i dont like 2-hour lessons. hmpf. i only like physics lesson the most cos got break! whoo! hahah, such that it doesnt feel 2hours.
i cant believe i actually wanted to finish all my hw within next week. LOL, you wish ah, janice tay!
but seriously, i do feel bored with everything. everything in my life just seems so perfect suddenly, so serene. that i'm so scared to lose it all. i'm grateful but sometimes, i'm afraid that i'll wake up and its all a dream. or whatever.
sometimes, i feel so happy with every single thing in my life. and the next moment, someone's actions or words just pull me all the way down. maybe you suddenly dislike me, i'm fine with that but stop changing faces. one moment happy, one moment dao-ish. its making me confused.
oh, just in case, the person i'm talking about above, name does not start with letter 'y'. hahah(:
ah but yes, i should enjoy now and every moment. that i have a computer to use.. hahah.
at least i'm sticking QT now, it does make me feel more happier(: OHOHO.
okay, my newest obsession: HSM1 and HSM2! and also hannah montana series. and also the suite life of zack and cody! hilariously funny okay(: