fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Wednesday, January 24,7:30 PM

LALA~ its a RECORD.

HAHA. hello. oh man. i have consistently blogged for 4 days with out FAIL. and i feel HAPPY. (: HEHE.

ok whatever. our class board is doing quite well. i think. NO, actually. nvm. shall stay back to finish it (: YIPPEE.

had BELAY SCHOOL today. so fun! omgoodness. our class is getting united! THANK YOU EVERYONE! esp. those that stayed back to do the class board. (: 3C, we rock! HAHA. i volunteered la. make life easier for instructors! no one listened to me can! i told the class must say, "yes instructor _____" then no one listened la. like what??? haiyo. nvm! 3C jia you!
i would like to add that i was the first person to call sherry INSTRUCTOR SHERRY! (: HEHE.
YU XIN, jia you. dont worry. you will always have hannah, joy and me to cheer you on. no matter. pls dont think too much! (:
had a weird workshop today! its about LEADERSHIP. i could relate to some of her points. if you stand firm to your beliefs, ppl will also respect you. THANK YOU GOD FOR MAKING ME FEARLESS.

HAHA. anw. it ended like super late! 1.23pm la. and i was supposed to meet JOY at 1.20pm. like WOW. hahaha. i feel proud of myself. JOY should know why. bleahx. it's ok. i shall go LATE tmr. (:

and i learnt something: HANNAH CAN REALLY DAO. oh man. she was like super DAO. but you could see her lips and mouth muscles(got such thing?) trembling. HAHA.

anw, yes. YIPPEE! hahaha. i am happy. and so proud. anw, i freaked out at first. ;p nah, whatever. its a SECRET. SHHH.

had a little counselling cum talk with JOY the counsellor, YU XIN and HANNAH. (: omg. i dont know what's wrong with me. i saw HER crying and for no reason, i cried. WOW. malu again! anw, i dont really care. i bet so many ppl see me cry before. ok... then, while walking to PP with JOY, WEITING and HANNAH, i cried again. omg. seriously, i dont know la. its just that i always thought CEDAR was perfect. perhaps it just shattered my dream. anw, i understood more about LTC, leaders, OAC, the reasons for some stuff. anw, i feel malu-ed. in front of my senior and hannah. for no reason. haiyo. =.=

then had talk with JOY on the way home. the background of some stuff. some people. we really should show them more LOVE. (: hehe.

some people really have to feel His LOVE, to fill up the gap in their empty unmeaningful lives. if they dont, they just feel insecure. just like me. before, i was always very scared of this and that. SCARED of CAMPS, SCARED of BEING ALONE, SCARED of LEADERS( this one ah, havent really overcome la), SCARED of LTC, SCARED of accidents happening to my family and SCARED of GHOSTS. but now, i need not fear. THANK YOU so much. for overcoming my fears and insecurities. i really have become braver. pls let me be a good LEADER for YOU to lead your people out of DARKNESS and INTO YOUR LIGHT. pls use me for the benefit of your kingdom. AMEN.

hmm. lemme see. what verse does GOD have for us today?
romans 5:8, But GOD demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
this is a meaningful verse. He loves us very much, and even though we have sinned alot of times, He continues to forgive us and love us. We need not have insecurities because He loves us and understands us, most of all, He forgives us with NO strings attached. so as long as He does, we are loved and cared for. "Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble" we need not worry. this is an assurance from God. AMEN. (:
GOD bless.