fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Saturday, July 8,10:51 AM

I KNOW.

hi, every one. i think that alot of ppl would not read my blog anymore cos i have not posted for.... A LONG TIME! hahahah. record liao lar.. hmm. few mths? i am very sorry but i realised that it is not that easy to keep a blog. so mid year gone, only left streaming. very stressed. heh. lol. lemme see if i can recall what i did in June. oh yes, i went for a 3-day SPH media camp. cool right? i was one of the three ppl that represented Cedar there! omg. did you know that there was one secondary school that loved Cedar so much, that they wanted to take a photo with us. they were like, "oh, we love Cedar very much. could we have a photo with you?" so funny lar.. we made many friends and explored diff. places in SPH! it is a really GREAT camp! if any of you out there is given a chance to go, you shd! the food they gave us was great lar.. the talks were very useful. and we even met Nathan Hartono! cool right? he sang for us and we interviewed him! (: heh. anw, then i went to church camp. it was great. it was really refreshing. it taught me many things. this is my fav. verse: Phillipians 4:19 And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. it was a five day camp. we planned on driving there with our church friend. when we realised that our car which is roti-chia(roti-car) might not be able to go through. so we had to come up with a last min plan to rent a car. we considered the cost of renting the car for five-six days. we also had to put shane in a boarding home.

also, on the week b4 the camp, my father got sick. my maid was sick. my elder bro was sick. my younger bro was sick. they all had fever. we prayed and they all healed. even my younger bro. the night b4 going, he had high fever. and the next day, he fully recovered! we got shane in a boarding home and we rented a brand-new car for quite a good price. thank God! anw, we drove there. we had a great time at malaysia. the speaker Roos Tooley was great. He made me understand what was my role as a christian and how i would be able to fulfill it. at camp, we had a "morning call" at 6.30am. some ppl will call your room no. at 6.30 to wake you up. it will ring for a while till you pick it up. then we had quiet time. i did mine with ruth! then we would have yummy breakfast and rev. ross would speak and then lunch the some games and dinner. and speaker. then we were free. it was really nice. then on one day, it was time for shopping but i didnt go. i stayed in the hotel with jolene and zhiqi. we went to zhi qi's room and wanted to go swimming. but there were boys frm church swimming so we went to the other corner of the pool and when we wanted to go in, suddenly our pastor swam to there. he didnt know we were there and we all ran away and hide behind the bush. we were like laughing. then one of the parent that didnt go shopping saw us and we told him that we wanted to swim but pastor was there. so he ask the pastor to go away. so funny lor! then we jumped in but we forgot to check the depth and the water turned out to be 1.8 m! hahahah. and stupid me jumped in without my goggles! so iwas like trying to breathe lar. chao funny. then i wore my goggles and it started raining. we only swam for a min and it rains. we went back to zhi qi's room and played games. then Jolene had to leave. her parents wanted to bring her family to eat dinner. at first, zhi qi wanted to go with jolene but later nice-nice zhi qi pei wo. hee hee. so we ate dinner and went to find alexis and ryan! they are cute cute children. alexis is abt 2 yrs and ryan is 4 yrs old. we brought them to the fish pond and played bubble with them. we blowed the bubble solution and they ran around catching the bubbles. so cute!!!!!! then, the camp ended really quickly. so my parents extended the trip. our family and uncle Roy's family (the one with alexis and ryan, they are in my cg) went to muar. we ate lotsa nice food there which uncle roy recommended. we had lotsa fun and i had lotsa time to play with the children. (: that week was the BEST time of my life! (: i love church camp.

that's all.
and today, i had a really weird dream. for many years i've stopped dreaming then suddenly, today i had a dream. i dreamt that i went for another church camp again and i shared a room with zhi qi. as we explored around, we suddenly turned into animals. i think i was a rabbit. then there were humans chasing me and zhi qi (who was a deer). we jumped onto a canoe and rowed it away. as we rowed and rowed, we suddenly became human again. we went onto land again and i saw alot of cedarians queueing in front of a door and i think it was a prize-giving ceremony. then i thot to myself, wow, cedarians rocks! then i woke up. i went to the toilet (this is irrelavent info :D) and went back to sleep. i had another dream. i dreamt that our family was in my parents room. we were discussing smtg, then my mother suddenly said. "tomorrow, we will move out of this place. the ********** have burned the 2 or 6 house's car already. (******** means i cant rmb. i cant rmb whether she said 2nd hse or 6th hse also.)" i said okay. lets pack. then suddenly my younger bro said. "jie-jie, rmb to bring my toy gun and my toys okay?" i smiled and went downstairs. then, through the window, i saw two women climbing on our car and pouring some stuff. one was wearing a red dress, another a blue one. then, there were suddenly more ppl coming to burn our car. they had not noticed me. i shouted, "what are you doing?" two men saw me and ran towards me. i tried to punch them but all my moves were in slow motion and they blocked them quickly. it was as though i was trying to hit them in the water and there was pressure preventing me from hitting quickly. then suddenly, i could move easily and i gave a hard punch to the men's stomach. he clutched his stomach and fainted. then i won! then i woke up.

some weird dream right? hahahahhaha.

okay lar. post very long liao. bye!