fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Wednesday, May 23,9:49 PM

goodbye.

saying goodbye isnt that difficult. its the people around that makes it so. ARGH. the atmosphere so emo. couldnt help it. but missing her so much. :/ HAHA. okay.

but it was difficult today. so many things happened. although it may seem perfectly normal to others but i really understood that feeling. :/ once again, someone reminded me. to her its really nothing much to be sad about. you can quit. i cant alr. its too late. i hesitated far too long.
today, ms wee taught me something. if you want to cross the road, cross it quick or a car might bang you. dont hesitate.
but its just too late. i cant turn back. it may ruin my life, pull down my grades but i'll never be able to run around as freely as before. you know sometimes, its not that bad. but.. i over react i guess. its just that.. now in EXCO, i dont know. my dad asked me this morning, when will you stop doing cca stuff? i said HAHA. but in my heart i knew, it would be next year. next year. then came the forgetful thing. i left the camera in the foyer. how dumb wass that. i was sleeping an average of 4-5 hours a day. why i dont know either. i just kept thinking i got cca stuff to do. ARGH, GAH. what an excuse. then i was very blur that morning. i really panicked. wah, thank God i found it. (: YAY! then wt said you left the bag in the foyer is it? i thought she was gonna scold me but she didnt. then i felt like i couldnt give up anymore. i mean they're so nice. i couldnt give up. i must be strong. then came CL. wl said now is the handing over alr. i pass everything to you all. you are in charge of everything now. everything we have we give you alr. and i wsa thinking. GOSH, what if joy said that to me. i know she will. but i just cant bear to face reality. GAH. stupid lah.

but.. i love gurvin so much for praying for me everytime. i shall go pray and tell GOD about today. ): i know after praying i will be praising Him again. (: mis love nad mercy endures forever. (:

i'll be strong if i can help it. but i wont say anything if you tell me again that you'll quit understudy just because your parents scold you. i've got nothing to say. its just as difficult as it is for me than it is for you. so like what i said, we'll do it together. i think i'll pull through.

At this point of time, you can give up. but we'll be very disappointed. ): i wish they hadn't high hopes on me. ):