fairytale/

Fairytale, really?
but it was never meant to be a fairytale. life's not perfect, life has its ups and its downs. what we have is more than a perfect story. we have a lifestory.

in life there's sure to be sorrow and disappointments. but its the darkness that makes the moon and stars shine brighter. and we know that through it all, we can trust that God's there for us. lighting up our life paths even at its darkest hours. bringing us unfathomable joy.
because He himself is Hope.

so here, trachelizo (v):
Laid bare and exposed.
each chapter, each episode recording genuine feelings and thoughts as a Child of God goes through the rollercoaster of life. and how the Grace of God still leaves her amazed and humbled, each time.

soaking prayer worship music

Tuesday, March 27,4:32 PM

HEH.

HELLO. (:

today was such a CRUSHING day for me. ):

i had bio practical today. ): i thought everything would be okay. i did study okay?! maybe not exactly the night before but the night the night before! and i know how to answer lah. just that i am so dumb. HEH. i was reading the instructions and my mind just went blank. HAHA. i was in that stupid pool of swirly grey mist again. HAHA. ohwells, then i wrote my answers on the graph paper which was meant for rough paper only!! ): and ms tan was like, class you can throw away the rough paper now. and i was like HUH?! i thought we're supposed to draw on it? ARGH.

and i am BIO rep. somemore. ): BIO REP FAIL BIO PRAC. HOW CAN?! and the class elected me to be cos they trusted me lah. and now, here i am. FAILING and totally flunking it. ): HOW CAN. argh. i feel bad to class again. nvm, i shall try harder okay?! i shall not give up and be the best bio rep. in class! (: HEH. ohwell.

i am happy tho' cos got MAKE UP CAMPFIRE. our class was like cheering this morning la. HAHA. (: OUR CLASS IS SUPER ENTHU. you know our WHOLE CLASS SIGNED LAH. (: YAY. 3C rocks la. (:

ok then after then, i was reminded of what i saw in canteen. omgosh, DONT CRY OKAY?! i care for you even if IT WAS SO LONG AGO WHEN WE WERE BEST FRIENDS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL.. HAVE FAITH. i'm sure you'll be FINE. you'll TRIUMPH over whatever sickness you have. (: you dont have to be sad even if you cant join the ndp thing. its okay. just get well soon. i mean like really! you'll be fine. OMG. rmb the DREAM you told me many years ago? the one where you dreamt of joanne? and the devil? and the car that banged you down? OMGOSH. i really miss those times we spent playing soccer together! recess together. rmb the giraffe toy you gave me in the bottle? the msg that you gave me? i dont mind being friends with you once again, if you'll just let me. i still dont know why you just didnt wanna be friends with me that time. i was quite sad. in fact VERY SAD. HAHA, i was moping around for days and you told me no need to be sad cos it would sooner or later end like that. i really didnt understand. WHY? ohwells, take care lah. i dont think you read this but if you do, i just want to let you know that i still care and i'll still be your friend. YOU WONT DIE LAH, CRAZY AH.

argh. nvm. i shall cheer myself up with CAMPFIRE and my diagonal table partner, AVERY! jia you lah, be happy. i'm sure they still want it. there's no reason why they wont. (: even if they dont want, on that day, when our class is enthu, they'll all catch the enthu bug and be fine! i'm sure it'll turn out fine. dont be sad you didnt do FLYING FOX! (: YOU'LL have a chance to try next time lah, i think. HAHA. (: JIA YOU okay?! dont be so worried alr. our class will SUPPORT YOU, CHEER YOU ON! (: HAHA.

but then, here's another problem! HAHA. today's such a problematic day.. HAHAH. i feel sad that they have given up on forgiving each other. ): ARGH. all those times you'll spent together, didnt make your friendship any stronger HUH. and all the songs, fen xiang, pu gong ying(the one we wanted to sing to ms png), tian hui,etc. it just faded away HUH. you just cant stop pride from getting into the way and just forgive? you know, its not really just between you two. but the WHOLE ENTIRE GOONG family is affected. we all could feel the tense atmosphere when we go out. we knew there was something wrong. its like why must end like this? HUH. i was feeling all mixed up la. (m.f. club mah) so disappointed, frustrated, sad and whatever. but anw, now i am feeling okay. cos i'm still quite HIGH over the campfire thingy. HAHAH. but anw, its juts wasted lah. it was like a plant growing sideways. even though the gardener had watered everyday but still, it grew more and more slanted until its roots could not support the weight and just FELL. yes, FELL. your friendship bridge just FELL. so easily. ): you may say it made you stronger, but it made our whole GOONG family weaker. i just pray that we can go back to those times with ms png, national day, CNY, everything.

and you can give up lah, give up on GOD. why must you curse Him? dont you know that you'll be judged very seriously? please lah, stop all the Fs and Hs la. please lah, just stop cursing. it just doesnt help at all.. its like as thought you say, 'what the ----' will help meh? it just conveys your anger and making the other party (GOD) angry lah. i really hope you know what to do and repent. i dont want to see you punished.

okay, forget it. i realised that sherry is very very super duper good at cheering ppl up lah. HAHA. i was laughing at her silly antics and attempts to make up laugh. HEH.

okay, then when i came back from recess, i was ACCUSED and SUSPECTED of copying my ban yue ji entry lah. it was written there, 'zhe shi ni de chuang zuo. hai shi...' please lah. i really didnt lah. omgosh. i was so pissed at first lah. its like under-estimating my chinese lah. PLEASE LAH. i mean, it is really really i write myself de lor. it expresses my feeling towards homework and tests lah. its my TRUE feelings lah. ): and she dont want to give me marks. i mean okay lar, i dont mind redoing but i DO NOT WANT TO BE LABELLED A CHEATER. HUH. it just really made me disappointed.

HAH. but then again, i had ANG ZOEY and SEOW YUXIN, and SHERRY GOH and TWIN to cheer me up and encourage me! (: OMGOSH, i really LOVE them. THEY ROCK LAH. NOT LIKE SOME PPL DIDNT EVEN CARE LAH. HAHA. JOKING la. (:

then i've got stuff to worry about like HOMEWORK, MY FRIEND. MY JUNIOR. MY CCA. THE PHOTOGRAPHY OUTING. ): HAHA. but anw, i told myself not to WORRY.

'Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.' Matthew 6:34 (:

YAY. today alot of things happened but yet i still managed to stay happy! (: bcos i've got Him with me. the JOY of the LORD is my STRENGTH. as in not JOY LEE CHANG but really JOY. (:
i've learnt my lesson okay?!

HEH. i was like so happy this morning! I WAS TEARING LAH. I WAS JUST LIKE SO HAPPY AND PROUD LAH. SO PROUD OF AVERY AND WHOEVER ELSE LA. BUT I'M SO HAPPY! I'M SUPER DUPER HAPPY. I WAS LIKE ZI-HIGHING LA. haha.

YAY. KAIQI, stop guessing who i ou. you and an an malu me! dont anyhow guess ppl name and shout that i ou her. -.- lah

BYE.