(: been feeling pretty happy yet terrified at the same time recently.
have been able to cheer up most, if not all my friends so far. (: seems like i am pretty good at making sad people smile. (: i hope i kept the smile there for a while. just until exams end. just need to pull him through till then (if its even possible).
not sure what i'm doing.
people are shitstirringgggggg. that was seriously... very uncalled for... ): i hope it won't be awkward though. this saturday. still very extremely excited for it. and biking friday morning. ._.
okay but honestly, will need to sort it out and talk it out soon and see how it goes. feel like i'm standing on sand right now though. foundation not very solid. what if i waver and agree to try it out. GG. ahhhhh i want to so badly. ):
both ways i'm like, aiyo what am i doing.
i'm terrified. i don't want this to blow up in our faces. i don't want to hurt anyone. i want to encourage him and make sure even if i leave him and our friendship is gone, he'll be confident enough to move on. he really is very awesome to me, haha. okay nevermind.
feel like a perfect match. but okay nevermind, i know its just like an illusion. we'll just fall apart again like last night.
okay blog, get ready for some serious heartache when i'm trying to get over him. it was great while it lasted. i just hope he leaves happily and bravely. omg okay i don't know what i want.
but yes, still holding on to the hope that you're not as far in as i am. that actually its all wishful thinking on my part.
will need clarification soon. for now though, let's just be silly and foolish. just for this weekend.
i keep smiling at my phone whenever i'm reminded that i made you smile as well. i just want you to keep it there.